Disappear

and it seems like there's always a thousand thoughts running through my mind

and it would not let me go

suffocating as it is

sweet dreams are lies

and I for once

will stop breathing

and i told myself

this would be the last time

ever



the deeper i go

the deeper it gets

adieu mon amour

Life. As It Is

The end of a week and also the beginning of another week ahead.

I can totally understand on what roomie wrote about having 'everyday blues'.

Life is never easy.

The only thing we could do is to look ahead and believe that great things are coming to us.

And hence, we dream, we hope, we wish, we pray.

My Immortal Beloved

"Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours"

- Beethoven

something that brought me to tears

i see you

I close my eyes

imagine myself

standing at the highest peak of a mountain

and that i would have the guts to jump off the cliff

i wonder

what is the last thought in the people's mind before they commit suicide

what is the feeling like when they were about to jump right off to the ground

speechless

emotional

as though you are about to soar above the sky

to the other side of the world

with fairies and angels

surrounding you

like never before

10.10.10 ?

I basically do nothing much on this so called 'special day'.

Had a good catch up with the babe though ;)

The sky today 10.10.10

A ladybird spotted ;>

Who's the babi?

Had a nice evening walk around the garden

* and i just realised that this is my no.1010 post, what a coincident huh =}

What's wrong with me?

Damn FTS

Something that made me smile

and i saw rainbow after the rain today....

something that 'you' always said to me ;)

;}

Had a really awesome weekend, i wished every weekend's like that awesome.

Got to finish work earlier on sat, went home and slept.

Woke up, dressed up, dinner with besties and headed for a jazz concert after the dinner.

Had a mini shopping trip on sunday and also finally got to have my graduation family portrait taken.

I felt so contented, blessed, happy. Money comes money goes, am a little poorer now but i'm happy cuz i spent and gained happiness.

Quote from my friend 'aiya, juz buy lah since it's so freaking cheap' tsk tsk ;D

Familee without the mum cuz she's the one holding the camera.

Would ya bring me to concert ;)

So many concerts happening right now.

Oh dear, I'd really wanna go for it.

Jazz, classical, pop......all is happening this month.

I'm Not Old

(pun intended) =P

For one moment, i thought my car was gone.

Going to pick up my car after gym. I remembered that i parked at the spot, when i couldn't find my car i paused there for a moment and thought "crap...someone must've stolen my car", but i parked inside this shopping mall's car park.

BAM....only after a second that it pops up in my mind that i actually parked at another spot instead of the one i thought i parked at.

Tsk tsk.

Time to sleep now. Night peeps

Emotion is weakness

Last week was one of the worst week i ever had.

Screw life screw work. My mood plunged from the very peak to the lowest ground.

This is life and i gotta prepare my ass off to face this shyt.

At least, I learned to be stronger now.

And yesterday i woke up feeling nausea and as though someone hit me hard on my head with a hammer. FTS, i'm still suffering now.

Wanna switch off my brain.

I'm having this vision of myself plunging into the waterfall from the peak. That's gonna be good.

Happy Mid Autumn

Long gone were those days where we used to play lantern and candles during the Mid Autumn Fest.

Missing every moment of it.

Interest facts i learned about recently.

Someone emailed me and told me he's from this place called Reading,UK.

Was literally laughing about it myself.

Like
A: "hello, i'm from Reading"
B: "oh...so do you read a lot?"

wtf hahahahaaa.....lame -_-"

And my student told me she has a rabbit named "Chris Brown" cuz it's brown in colour
--____-- lol

Forgive me for being lame tonight cuz i'm in a good mood ;)

Home It Is ;>

Thanks for having such awesome parents.

The place feels more like a 'real home' now ;)

Boohoo and I finally watched Step Up 3 thanks to ms.roomie and thanks for laughing at me (Rain, we watching Street Dance 3 ke Step Up 3?) ;S

There's just so many things that reminds me of 'you guys'. I think i've gotten the virus from you all.
Tsk tsk....this is bad this is bad baby.

No.999

Post No.999. It's been a long long way and time.

4 years and counting ;)

1 more day, bro's coming home ;}

Missing the people. Every each of you.

Hosting via CouchSurfing 2

Brought Tommy to Genting the next day.

Stopped by at Chin Swee Temple to snap some pictures and sight see.


Laughing Buddha



I love this particular picture. Spot the 'lion face shape'



Misty day


Bamboo tree and the lamp ~reminds me so much of China




Last pic with Tommy before sending him off to Kuantan.

Couch surfing is a great way of getting to know people from around the world. I've learned so much about the different culture and new knowledge through the people i hosted.
It was a great experience.
I've been getting few requests lately of people asking to couch surf in my place but too bad i'm sorta busy these days and had to turn down their requests.

Lazie Monday

And it's my off day again ;>

Being a couch potato enjoying every minute at home.

Watched a movie through pps. Stupid me thought i watched "Step Up 3", so after the movie ended i was thinking 'cheh...it ain't that nice as what my friends told me also".

So I went and googled more bout the movie and realised that i was watching "Street Dance 3D" instead of "Step Up 3D" cuz the movie title is written in chinese and it's so alike for both ;S wtf

On another note, i'm so damn pissed off with my handphone now. Problems kept occurring and i'm so tempted to get a iphone now.

Wake me up puhleaseee.....i'm still in holiday mode ;(

Someday

13 hours, 780 minutes, 3600 seconds

and the time goes on and on

Off i go away from this hustle bustle of the city.

Time for some quiet moment